4 months down! And Elder F is on his way home. :)
3 months down!
2 months down!
1 month down!
I will be leaving for my 18 month long mission tomorrow, and I’m extremely nervous, terrified, and excited. It’s so weird. I never grew up thinking that I’d leave my family for a year and a half, trying to teach people, but here I am. I was a hardcore atheist at eleven until fifteen, and now I’m suddenly a very active LDS member going on a mission.
My family and friends might not want me to leave, but it’s what I want and have to do. Besides Oregon isn’t even that far away from where I live in California. And emails and letters go way farther than anyone would think. They really do help fill some gaps in.
I had my last Fast and Testimony meeting yesterday. I was only able to go for an hour because I was feeling really awful. I bore my testimony for the first time as well. I saw Elder F’s little sister (12) go up, and I knew I had to go up too. I said something really short, but apparently people liked it.
I went over to Elder F’s home last night to drop off my baby (my bass) and my amp. They’re bass watching her for me while I’m gone. I’m a lefty and have a lefty bass, and one of Elder F’s younger brothers is a lefty. So I thought he could try to play it. They already have a guitar and a drum set in the house. They needed a bass.
We skyped a bit with one of Elder F’s older sisters and her husband (I got to see their 3 week old baby and she was so cute). But Elder F’s dad actually gave me a blessing last night too. It was really nice and unexpected. Right after it, he said we needed to have a family prayer, which made me gush. I love being included in those sorts of things. They’re such a nice family. I’m gonna miss them all so much
I’ve had this blog for maybe a year and a half? I think. Very tentative on that, but it’s been very good for me to see Tumblrstake even if I never did join. I had a blast getting to know other MGs. I got to see one of them get her missionary back. I got to see people who hated the church and people who love the church. I’m still a fairly new member in my eyes, but I think this mission will do great things for myself and maybe for the people that I’ll be able to meet.
I guess I’ll be back here in 18 months. I hope a ton won’t change here. :)
Honestly it’s however you and your missionary wants them to be. Some missionaries can be easily distracted, and that’s fine. So you put less in them.
So maybe that RM was easily distracted and needed less said to him. But my missionary loves loves loves to hear everything I have to say and wants me to say more than that even. He’s very good at listening and being attentive when he’s writing a letter or email to me, but he can turn it off and get back to his work when he needs to.
I asked my missionary when he was out how much he thought was appropriate because everyone’s different. I think if you just asked yours, you could get an answer that would fit you two as well. :)
It’s my last Sunday before I leave for the MTC. I leave in two days, and I’m finally starting to get nervous about it all. I said goodbye (maybe for the last time) to my best friends last night, and I cried. I waited for them to leave, but I cried. I’m really hoping they come to the airport. It was going to be a sweet family moment, but a relative I don’t care for at all is coming. So… I told my friends they were more than welcome to come.
If the only thing I get from this mission is me understanding more how Elder F felt during his experience, I’d say it was an okay mission. I’m already understanding how he must have felt when friends are all making plans for things he couldn’t go to. He was leaving. I’m leaving, and my friends have plans for this upcoming weeks for Santa Cruz. It’s nice to finally get where he was coming from, and it’s not just me thinking about how much I’d miss him.
I get it now. I want to stay with my friends and family, but I know I want and should go on this mission. Even if it means I have to go on a plane longer than 30 minute for the first time in my life (sky diving is awesome by the way). Even if I only get to write emails and letters once a week, and I only get to call home twice a year. It’s so worth it. I’m gonna be doing so much good. Tuesday is coming by so fast but at the same time not nearly fast enough.